Mar 01 2004

only as tough as i feel

Category: poetry,writinglittleREDelf @ 10:04 am

only as tough as i feel

there is more than silver
than the edge of a blade
more than leather and skin
but not much more

choices have been made:
the paint on the wall
the darkness of the disaster
the places you will break

though I lay in wait
i can leave at anytime
I bare myself before you
in careful measures

i am only as tough as i feel
as black as my blues
as desperate and as beautiful
as the power i assign you

I will keep them on
strapped in tight
if that’s what you want
if that’s how we will be

there is more than being
desperate and beautiful, black and blue
darkness disaster silver leather skin
i can leave at any time.

~ Andrea E. Janda

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Feb 17 2004

this girl

Category: poetry,writinglittleREDelf @ 7:16 am

this girl

this girl figure skates in her bathtub
this girl is a repressed writer
this girl knows that a pair of shoes
can change your mind and change the world
or at least determine how far you travel.
this girl is friends with black and blue
but doesn’t need a place to sit down
or stand still, to count her bruises
and she doesn’t want her name tag
to read “wife.”
this girl will gently comb your body
examine your every shape for interpretations
in the small of your back
the length of your arms
the back of your calves
your hands.
and you will think to look for her
in dark places and she will laugh at you
standing in a shock of sunlight
eying you from under her umbrella.
and you will love her every contradiction
wish yourself underneath her coat
wonder what it’s like to be the pocket lint
riding soft alongside her hip
you will pack your razorblade suitcase
and this girl will fill the bathtub in the hotel
the room will go cold, your lips will pale
your eyes and hair go white rabbit snowshoes
and the voice of this girl will come
glass shatter blood trickle thirst
you will find yourself skating figure 8s
deep circles of infinite love
stretched taut for
this girl.

~ Andrea E. Janda

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